Friday, December 26, 2008

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARREN!!
feel like going down tm today,
cause i got the feel that he will be working.
AND YA I ADMIT, i want to go down to see him,
i miss him so damn much.
its been so long ever since i see him.
i know i know everything is different now,
he doesnt love me, its just me who love him now.
want to buy him a christmas gift but to think about it,
dont buy better la,
he say the next time i buy he will throw and he doesnt like it.
=(
i know i kept saying that i have forgotten, i have given up, i have move on.
but seriously i haven.
have been constantly thinking about him,
constantly dreaming about him.
everytime i log into msn i will start to think about those things he said to me,
i really dont have anymore confident in me.
i am scared of losing him even more.
i am scared of hurting him again.
i am scared of making him hate me even more.
i am scared of everything right now.
everytime i saw him online,
i feel like talking to him so damn much,
but somehow i am scared i am scared of saying something wrong.
i have lose him, i dont wish to lose him as a friend le.
this time round i never ask him to like me never ask him to return never ask him to wait,
cause i know i will still be me i dont wish to make him waste his time on me any longer,
if he really find someone better den i will just give him all my regards.
as long as he is happy everything will do.

I am Lynette!