Tuesday, October 14, 2008

morning went yoshi during opening,
meet caileng.
had breakfast.
help out at yoshi did kitchen.
buy durian pancake that time saw puiman.
intend to wait for caileng fang gong de,
but nv due to something i went home.
was like crying from yoshi all the way back home,
eva, aunty sally, caileng, kailing, aunty, darren, mum sorry..
maybe i really didnt change at all.
i keep doing fucking things to irritated you,
i know you hate me to the core.
but the sms you sent really hurt me alot.
i did nothing ok.
what i want was just for you to return thats all.
just what have i done wrong.
ya i keep doing stupid things wasting my time,
over spill milk.
so what people have different ways of loving someone ok .
you have no right to tell me what to do ok.
ya i did write i will not force you,
but i really cant control myself ok,
as in my hands are being control.
i hate losing I HATE IT OK.
especially when so many things happen between us,
now just ending like that.
you can be se de to fang qi,
but i dont ok..
it is harder den you think ok.
wo bu shi gu yi bi ni de,
wo bu shi gu yi de zhen de..
wo zi dao ni bu ai wo le,
ke shi wo hai shi hen ai ni de.
wo zhen de hen ai ni,
i am so tired of it,
i really hope i could just sleep and never wake up..
just who am i ,
why am i doing all this.
why have i done all this.
i am so useless,
i am so hopeless,
i suck so much.
i just cant say goodbye,
too many things happen..

I am Lynette!