Saturday, September 27, 2008

went over yoshinoya ytd to meet sheree,
slack at yoshi to about 10 den went home,
ya took up smoking again,
i know walking back the same path..
i hate smokers , i hate myself !!!
stomach was like so damn pain..
at night talk with puiman and didi,
ok well ,
i hate it i hate it i hate it..
very fucking disappointed ok,
my best friend turn into a unknown !!!
and my lover turn into a stranger.
everyone change so fast..
well, boys are good for nothing...
i dont know wad you say last night is true or not,
but if it is true,
wish you last long with her den..
find it so damn fucking stupid can!!
do so many fucking things as in he will care,
he change ,he is no longer the person who i once know,
everyone change,
sheree auntys and friends call me go back yoshi work,
but i guess i am not going to work there ever again,
ya i am not going to see him , face him,
ya i am running away!!!
love someone so fucking much so wad as in he care,
as in he will treat u nice,
as in time could go back...
as in your love is worth!!!
no matter wad you do the past will not go back,
wad over is over..
GAMES OVER!!!
ya indeed the answer is I GIVE UP,
i dont wan to see myself so fucking hurt le,
he is not that perfect,
trying to win back a rotten apple's heart,
silly me!!!
he once was a good person, now becoming as bad as shit..
now study is more important ,
maybe force on Ns..
(as in i will study)
like wad des say boys are all devil,
I SWEAR I AM NV GOING TO HAVE A RELATIONSHIP AGAIN!!!
ok well,
waikiang u once ask me being love or love wk more xin fu,
i tell you LOVING WK THERE IS NO XIN FU AT ALL..
you always say i no good all my fault,
u think u very perfect ar no mistake at all ar...
u say u love ur life now ,
ya i know ben told me b4, compare we stead n nv stead, u nv stead more happy
ya i am now so damn du lan plus disappointed ok ,
how would u feel when someone you love tell you all that,
happy meh !!!!
like ben say i have no good points at all, all bad..
so wad i am not going to change for anyone!!!
i love the way i am,
no good point so be it,
lovers not coming back,
love life GONE FOREVER..
how i wish later on when i go out with huimin a car could just hit me,
so i could forget all the things i did with you,
i really wan to forget you ,
i realli do i dont wish to think about it anymore,
i am tired very tired,
how i wish you nv treat me so good b4,
i wan to forget everything which are related to you,
i realli do,
BUT I JUST CANT!!!
i just love you so much ..
how i wish i could be like pm fang de xia..
that time was like so stupid wan to buy 100 candles,
to put a sorry shape downstair ur house and call you to look down,
but nv buy nv put la,
and even thought of making ur favourite salmon sushi putting it outside ur house..
now it is all over,
i will still love u and wait but i am nv going to ask for patch le.
ur feeling change no point forcing you...
just wish you all the best and take care

I am Lynette!