Monday, December 31, 2007
YESTERDAY cook chawamushi,and burn my finger it was like so red and pain...after that went for singing lesson..jeff lao shi went over to pai si so not teaching us,so another teacher came to take over..i was like damn paiseh ok,call me sing wo hao xiang hao hao ai ni,i dont even dare to sing it out loud,damn scared cause i never sing with just the BGM before with this song,but when the teacher sang with me felt much dare-ing..i dare to sing when the people i know look at me but dont know why i cant sing when people i am not close to look at me and was like listening to me when i am standing in the middle of all of them and when i am alone and at that time i am so scared that i will sing wrongly and people might laugh at me ...i practice so hard and once i am there i forgotton all the key and some notes..told father about it and he say this:if you are afraid of being in the center of attention,i think you better put the dream of urs a side and treat it as a hobby,because you really need to be dare-ing enough to be a singer...if you cant even face the few people in the same class as you what for facing the other millions out there when you really become one singer one day...felt like crying when i heard that because,i really try very hard but i just can face it,i really want to make it true but the fear is pulling me back..he also ask me this:since you like taking photo why not learn photographing other than singing..the reason i want to be a singer is because:1. i love to sing2. one day i might be able to go mo fan bang bang tang,so able to see wei yu mao di and maybe monkey3. can come out with my very first album..4. my studies are very poor so i wish i can just like come out with something other den just letting people say those hurtful things...after singing lesson went over to grandmother house,
something very hurtful happen,
grandmother cry grandpa still have the mood to laugh,
heartless man!!!
i know children cannot chup into this thing but i must say something,from my point of view..man treat woman as slave and never treasure them well,but let me tell U woman are not born to be man slave..when u say a divorce why woman cry is because,they want to keep this family going on,not like u man say wad tired of her liao,think she not tired of u meh,if not wrong she oso tired of u liao lor,for the sake of her children she have to live up with u...once you did something wrong to her she did not take it too much in heart and now,pushing all the blame to her and can laugh when she cry,you idiot man if i am her i will jolly well take a knife and kill you,cause u are not worth for me to love!!!
8:12 AM
I am Lynette!
