Friday, March 16, 2007

today wanna go bugis with songeng, zhengyuan and tristan,
but den last min i nv go..
cause i scared c tristan i will go home straight away like the other 2 times...
den at home keep on sleep...
XD..
gerald called...
and call me to go out wit him..
i say ok...
den end up nv go out with him...
as i dun feel like meetin him...
so tired...
when out with mingming instead..
and mingming ask me for stead just now...
and the conversation was like:
ming: can i ask u for stead
me: emmm... dunno lei..
ming: jus a yes or no.
me: give me 3 days to consider la...
ming: ok fine... i will wait...
end of chat...
and i was like dunno wanna accept him nt lor...
scared reject him he will sad like how sad i m now...
den scared accept him will be playin my own feelings as i still like natsirt ..
dunno wad to do so confused
haish...
tonight tonning with them again
sian
i m now kindly at mingming house having dinner
waiting for samantha to arrive...
and than go town ton..
haish...
sian...
i kind of miss the past ya..
i miss the laughter i have in school...
hope can faster sch reopen...
i miss my friend especially irna..
cannot get to see her le..
sob sob..
when sch reopen i wonder how wanyi will treat me cause i write very rude comment to her..
haha...
haish...
after 3 month my feeling for him is still the same...
how i wish someone could tell me wat has happen as he is treatin me colder...
should i continue loving and waitin for him or should i stop???
how i wish someone would tell me the answer..
i dun wish for anything but jus wanna him to tell me the true,
will he accept me or reject me,
i dun wish to be kept in the dark anymore...
ppl have been telling me to give up cause he will nv accept me,
but wad i wan is to hear it from him...
i dun care wad others say but i jus wish you will tell me the true and i will noe wad to do...
haish..
how i wish you will at least treat me like someone but not no one...
haish..
no matter wad ur answer is life must still carry on,
i will not do silly thing le...
i will prove to u,
even if i have the times without you,
i will continue to stay happy as long as i have my friends by my side...

I am Lynette!